Magnetic Rhythms

It's easy to write about the positive stuff, but the negative is so hard as I've not figured out the answers yet.

Fleas, itching, itchy bumps...

When I begin to worry about fleas, I instantly start to itch. I even feel crawling over my skin. I check to see if a flea or other critter is present, but nope. Nothing at all. So then I worry - is there an invisible or microscopic creature on me? Have I missed the flea? I've suffered from itchy bumps all my life - have I always been infected with fleas? I remember thinking the same last summer about chickenpox. And biological washing powder. And midges/mosquitoes.

How does one distinguish the correct origin of an itchy bump?

Is it all about magnetic rhythm? The energy field pulsating around my skin intensifies during stress, causing me to itch?

I suffered the least with flea bites out of my mum, boyfriend and daughter and I. Lizzy had bites but hasn't been scratching much.

I suspect this is because she's not aware of them?

Not psychologically aware of their implications.

To reduce my itching I have tried to stay calm, calm my magnetic rhythms.

Work on the heart centre... I feel too focused in the heart. I see, have been told or shown that a wonderful caring gateway has opened here yet it is leading me to give, give and give, yet I receive less back. In monetary terms.

Yet eventually, in time when I have learned my lessons it will return.

Yet, why is there an inadequate gateway to myself?

To nurturing myself?

Well I am trying this week to get on it.

I hate that I have to keep reminding myself to do basic things like stick to a simple western routine of a daily morning shower, brush teeth twice a day - why do I find it so hard? When will my hair stop falling out and will it grow back? Is my tooth decaying or merely chipped? I'm too scared to go to the dentist's and check.
I'm too scared to get my kidneys tested at the doctor's, too scared to donate now :-/