Gold and Silver Revisited (Draft)

Gold and Silver Poem

Two forces come together this week - the beautiful strong, warm gold of the sun, of our deepest love and our deepest emotional pain, released through the deep love of the sun - of our son - of the love of Jesus whose deepest, most painful love and sacrifice he gave unwillingly to mankind...and we reasoned it as pure destiny and divine intention... as did Jesus himself... but I still believe there was another way.

(Partly channeled: 'You don't know how hard it was at the time - you try thinking of another way').

The silver... the glorious divine wisdom, the lightest of light energies... like a silver mist, a gossamer thread so fine one can barely feel it... the lightest of humour, of wisdom, of mirth, of love... 

I can live with neither on their own, I need both, common sense says... For a year or more I focused on the light... love and light. I became so light at points that I could float. At times, I meditated so often I did float in a metaphorical sense and floated too far away! I alienated myself from my parents, from anyone with a 'low vibration': I shunned those who suffered from anger problems at some points in my development. I felt at points that light would only do so much. Creating happiness within me was only papering over the cracks - marital separation and moving back home was the only option.

Now I come back to love of all. True inclusive, unconditional love. 

I have long wanted to make spiritual healing accessible to those I grew up with. To be able to talk about spiritual stuff to them and give advice in everyday conversation.

Emotional heaviness draws me in.... I enjoy pain... the resolution of it through normal conversation and conflict.... Through the natural pulling downwards of our pain to receive healing, we eventually work ourselves back up to the light!

Meditation and higher vibrational work puts us straight into the light sometimes but at others, when there's deep emotional healing needed, we need to release. To feel, to cry. To talk about our hurt feelings... to shout? I don't like shouting, however.

But more...

The reverse vortex movement....

I wrote a few weeks ago of a vortex of pain. I wanted to create a natural healing method, rather than a method of conscious control and resistance. So this is my method:

The vortex of pain pulls us in.... Its magnetism draws us.... The golden, pulsing, pained soul light is heavy and leaden with love... a deep need for the love of another, pure love to heal it... her.... him.... Oh how I long to heal you and this is the most natural instinct in the world.... No healer training is required for this! This is the pure instinctual, natural loving response to another's deep pain and hurt, longing....

So, we are drawn into the vortex and as healers we may fear various things - what to say, how long to take, what method to use, energy transference... But the gold - the soul's gold of pure love will protect us in this natural healing scenario! So don't worry! We will know when it's naturally over. It will not drain us!

Once the vortex has taken all the healing that is needed, it will naturally begin to spin in the opposite direction, producing the most wonderful healing.... The person that received healing, once they have received all they need, is now capable of giving healing themselves! Of giving the most beautiful energy and light into the world! The healer receives their energy back from the patient and in a natural exchange, like in friendship, the 'patient' can become the healer, giving advice etc or healing themselves!

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After the session, grounding and centring is helpful. And a breather! Fresh air!