My silly iPhone won't let me post photos on here.
Perhaps the most relieving moment of my week has been seeing Davey. I was beginning to feel increasingly insecure, stressed, about him staying the night whilst Lizzy was also staying - owing to the sheer workload and stress of housework, weaning, endless story reading and cleaning, attempting to care for Liz without Davey feeling left out, attempting to create love and romance with Davey without Liz feeling left out or being too inappropriate (in all honesty I'm not completely sure what appropriate is apart from the obvious).
But my fears were allayed as soon as I saw you :-)
And it was so relaxing, so pleasant, so romantic, so supportive, so everything I absolutely needed! I couldn't have wished for anything more! Well maybe a couple of things more ;-) but not much! It made me feel as other occasions have that we really could be a family - not just having a kid of our own but having Lizzy as our kid.
Living together happily, eventually.
Travelling together, joyfully.
Making music together, with lots of fun!
Learning reflecting and reasoning together.
Caring for the world and our dear friends together, with reasonable detachment.
(Maybe that's what I need! Eureka!!)
I love you Davey and I hope I upset noone else by writing this, I do truly love you too but I have to love one person and spend most of my time with one person more than anybody else. I think - I certainly want enough time to still look after everybody else as well, as much as they need it.
Lots of love to everyone xxxxx
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